October 2, 2013
Help me, Lord, in this moment and the ones that will follow. Right now I feel at such a loss. Nothing I do seems to be having any kind of positive effect. I feel so inadequate and useless. All of my effort seems futile and the frustration has left me with little patience for myself or others. I feel as though I am failing and this is one area where that truly is not acceptable.
I don't know what to do Lord. I don't know how to proceed and I feel like I'm being tossed about by advice, emotions, fears and the gravity of the whole situation. Help me to take this one moment at a time, one challenge, one battle and help me not allow this situation and troubles, affect the other areas of our relationship and my life.
Where do I go from here? How do I proceed? What should I say? How do I respond? What will reach her heart, Lord?
Lord, please change me in whatever way is necessary so I can be the mother she needs.
October 9, 2013
Two beautiful little souls, Lord. Two beautiful little girls that you have entrusted to us. Thank you for them. Thank you for the way they have and continue to change me for the better. Help me Lord as I work and play with them. Help me have greater depths of patience and grace.
Be with our girls Lord. They are little now and their cares are simple and few, but it will not be long until they are facing many new challenges and temptations. I pray that Drew and I will have helped to instill within them self-confidence and a deep love for You that will guide them through the times ahead. I pray they will seek You, know You and love You above all else and I ask that they will see this in me.
October 12, 2013
Lord,
I don't need to tell you but it's been a couple of hard days in our home. I feel like our sweet, sensitive, loving little girl has morphed into a completely different child. It is so challenging to be the parent handling the situations as they arise, but now with Drew home, I find it is almost harder to sit and listen as our child rages and struggles with any kind of authority.
First and foremost Lord, I ask that you would help us reach her heart. Yes, we seek obedience in her behaviors, but even more, we want her heart to be changed so that the obedience is an overflow from that. I do pray that as we continue forward you would give Drew and I guidance to know how to address the various situations that arise. Help us to deal with them in a manner that is most effective for her and that is consistent not only time from time but between the two of us as well.
I also ask that she would choose to let herself sleep. She has been refusing to allow herself to fall asleep until so late and we know that her exhaustion is only exacerbating the situation. No, sleep would not fix everything we're seeing, but it would put her in a place to make better choices.
In all things Lord, I pray that she would always know that we love her, that You love her and that everything we do comes from that.
October 13, 2013
Thank you for the good day. May we draw encouragement from it in the days to come and may I not lose heart when another bad day comes our way.
